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Welpz i'm back from Mexico. it was alright, youd have to ask me personally for specifics. i'm definetly glad to be home, although things haven't been so good with me lately. grades sucked majorly, and i've just gone through a few struggles lately that have placed me where i don't want to be placed. i can't really go into details, but if you could pray that woudl be great. I hope i can continue to trust God no matter how difficult, or painful the circumstances may be. although sometimes i wonder why i try so hard, or even think so postively about certain things....is it wrong to be idealistic, and still not be so naive. all this time....is it hopeless?....not sure...

i'm in north reading room....lol never been here before...or at least not this semester...i vaguely remember getting books or something...anywayz...this is interesting....so quiet....it's a lil bit TOO quiet. anyways....CLASSES ARE OVER!!! WHEEEE!!! PRAISE GOD I GOT THROUGH THIS SEMESTER!! well i barely got through it....anywayz hope things are going well with everyone!!!! i've got one final on wednesday and one on tuesday...and then...I'M DONE!!! weeeee!!! this year has gone by super fast...not sure if i want it to end...just means that i have to grow up...am i grown? iono. i still sometimes feel i'm not mature enough...i act...childish i guess...but that's how i keep my youth! i gotta hang with lots of people so that's way cool! catching up with people and seeing how theyr'e doing is always a blessing!! last night watched two movies with joanne and peggy. cheaper by the dozen and say antyhing...both EXCELLENT movies...plus we had dinner which was yummy!! quen joined us for that. but in general a very relaxing fun night!!! hope everyone is still alive out there!! byeee

hiiiii WORLD!!!!

bunch of things happening!

*grad nite was good!! glad to see all the seniors decked out and of course everyting went soo smoothly!!! LOTS OF PROPS TO THE COMMITTEE HEADS!! you all did a WONDERFUL job!!!
*classes are over TUESDAY!!! i've got two finals on mondya, one on wednesday, one on tuesday
*i bought season 6 and 7 of friends!!! ehehhe that's what we've been doing!
*i'm hanging with stephanie today!! yay!! and we're gonna study!!!
*i've got half of my list done!

this week hasn't been all that great tho....actually the past two weeks havent' been that good either.....i guess it's one of those weeks where...u wake up....and u just feel blahh....yea....been praying about it....but ti's been difficult....yea....oh welpz...

hehe 'im in class!! posting cuz it's pretty boring.....i'm done with any midterms, one more paper for ba, and then it's finals! man...this semester went by so fast...i can't believe i'm gonna be a senior!!! oh my goodness!!!! so a quick update on things that i need to do sometime....

*plan trip down to l.a
*missions trip!! get supplies
*hang out with people
*figure out work schedule
*get digital camera fixed

it's been a bit hectic....very...frazzled with al the things going on...a bit overwhelming....lots of things to plan and organize and my heads racign cuz i dunno how to organize them....blAHHHH

this weekend is gonna be pretty relaxed except on saturday in the morning. i'm leading sg!!! yay!! hmm other than that...not sure what's going on...gotta figure it out sooner or later...but this is just a quick post during class...hehehe....it's hard to stay awake if id ont' have my lap top....good investment wouldn't u say? laterz!

i'm back!!! from a very long vacation of blogging, mainly cuz my blogging is liek journaling, but now that i have a journal i dont' really post here. welpz....hmm waht to say....oc is sooo good. i'm trying to be more discipline in my quiet times which has been very good lately. things are much different than they were i guess a month ago.....different perspective....a more Godly perspective. lots have had happen over the month so i'l list a bullet point thingy and u can ask as i go along....

*slept over at eddie and cindy's! highlight of my spring break!
*oh yea spring break that was good! golfed a bit, watched spotless mind, and hung out with friends
*i've picked my classes!!
*spent time with family during easter...it was really good. Really good!
*continuing to learn about God's awesome plans even tho sometimes i don't wanan follow
*still wondering where God is leading me to serve next semester...i just gotta be patient!
*just chillin with friends
*i had three papers due this week! they are all done!! but a midterm on monday! blah
*it's been a blessing to have friends in classes!
*thankful for my small group!!!
*thigns are good...not perfect...but that's ok!

wow....this morning's message about brokeness...wow. man when i thought i was broken, God reminded me again that there is still much to be broken by. *sigh*but i'm so thankful for the reminder...and man...do i have much to grow in. but a great reminder after such a crappy week...a really crappy week. i can't even describe it. the feelings that engulfed my heart....such a sinful heart....and such sinful feelings....but...yay for this mornin's message.

broken i come to you for i know you satisfy....

i pray God will change my heart

not sure what to write....so i dont' think i will...ehehe....going on hiatus for a while...

i'm soo glad i went home today....turns out my bro came home, plus my mom and dad were there...it was good. we didn't talk a LOT a lot, but it was good to be with family, i've missed them. things have been pretty good lately with qts, hard lately cuz of school, but i'm dealing witht hem slowly.....lots of things to grow in, gotta keep praying about them. welpz take care everyone!

hey everyone, just wanted to say hi!

Praise God!!!!!

retreat was awesome!! Welcome Pat, Yaluen, Henry, Feng, Sang-Heon to God's family!!!! Praise God for the others that i dont' knwo who accepted Christ!!

Praise God for a time to meet him amongst all the distractions. THANK YOU!

much to tell about retreat...feel free to ask!

today spent some time with God in my car. i think in the midst of my stressing, especially yesterday when i just...cried....for no apparent reason, finally when i can have some time a lone and not think about work, it's my time with God that truly gives me peace. and it's a peace like no other. where you wish u could just be in there forever cuz it's so much better than going back to school and doing work or to do whateverz. just me and God. thanks to my bro and sis in christ for listening to me....thx for distracting me the best way you could. Yesterday during sunday school the thoughts about dying really struck me...and hard. perhaps the realization that if i died, would i be willing to go. Could i say, God even if you take me or leave me here, i'd be happy with both decisions. Of course i would have missed out on a husband, kids, just the kewl things to do with them as well as just adventures as a young adult.....and sure...i;'d be sad, but also....i'd be happy to go home. I'm sure there are things that'd i'd be thinking about more...but all in all...yea. I had some equality time with dshen, that was good. had zachary's and yum yum! we ate a whole 10" hehehe...studied for a test that i think i got a b on. we'll see how it all goes....things are good. a lot of things that i'm still convicted of. where i am, who i'm gonna be, the things around me, the joys, the pains. lots of things racing in my head. it's hard to explain. sometimes i wonder what i'm really doing in life....

So i recently have been quite busy with just various things, ministries, talking with people, plus doing all my work! i've been keeping up with all of it, and so i've been behind on my blog reading. i honestly find myself trying really hard to keep up with my work, but fallign behind on i believe the more important things, especially my quiet times, today was quite refreshing tho, i did contact for the first time =) that was pretty awesome, and then i saw leon powe and ubaka, and congratulated them on yesterday's game. my car was broken...again. thankfully james came to my rescue...again!! THANKS SO MUCH JAMES! I OWE YOU! drove home and finally got gas for the car but was too scared to go anywhere else. all in all, despite my car troubles, it has been a good day!!!

2 timothy 2!!
-what a moving passage as how we should strive to stand firm against the sins of the world.
-suffering hardships is difficult, but we've all gone through them, let's support each other!
-gotta love those analogies!
-The Lord will give us understanding
-We may be imprisoned because of what we can't do, but the WORD of God lives!! it can not be stopped and can't be imprisoned!
-if we are faithfuless, he remains faithful because he can not deny himself!! what an awesome verse....think about it!
-accurately handle the word of truth, sometimes we just gotta be straight forward!
-hmm such application, today especially with contact, the firm foundation stands!
-we need to be witnesses, good ones....

2 timothy 1
-verse for this semester v 7
-God has called us with a holy calling to do his work. Let's get out there!
-dn't be afraid despite all the fears of getting out there and proclaiming the faith
-nto by our works that God calls us to HIS purpose
-He gave us grace....grace....to be loving despite how hateful we can be
-Jesus abolished death....we live forever through the gospel
-we go through many struggles, not cuz jesus doesn't love us but because he DOES love us
-life isn't suppose to be easy and it's not suppose to be a breeze...we're supposed to go through things cuz we're suppose to learn.
-"i have entrusted to Him until that day"

i've caught up with all my reading for class for today. i gotta ready for tuesday cuz i already finsihed my reading for ba!! i'm trying to keep on top of things because of the devastation of last semester. and i realized...me not turnign in hw, or not doing well is my own fault. and talking about how i did poorly isn't gonna help the circumstances i'm in. it was my fault i was lazy in my school work and i'm not gonna let that happen again. aside from goign to class, plus 2 hours of reading wiht may and joanne. had lunch with kat. that was good cuz we gotta tlak about goals plus how our winterbreaks went with china and urbana. it was really nice yup yup. and then went home to relax, chilling till worship team. take care everyone!

it's been a while since i've posted....yea i kno....i thik when it hits the weekend, my bible reading tends to take a lil slump. but i'm back starting to read 2 timothy cuz it only seems logical to keep going. this past weekend was ok. school has really tired me out cuz i've been exhausted lately. i've been gettign headaches recently which is odd cuz i normally don't. Cal won both of their games which is awesome!! but man do we need lots of work. for example...BETTER SCREENS!!! boxing out!! i think i coudl box them out better!!! FREE THROWS!! better, but not great. but Go bears....winning streak...2. today i was suppose to go to work, so i drove to class this morning, parked on bancroft, went to class, then to work, turned out that i didn't have to be there, but i did soem errands like getting a safe deposit box, and getting my tax stuff that i'm suppose to pay taxes for iono...after that went to gspp? uhh the place near tolman and read a bit, had lunch, went to mcb 11 discussion, went home and rested. chillin the rest of the night! layyerrzzz!!

read all of 2 timothy to get an overview...thoughts next time...

welpz i read yesterday, gonna read some more today, went out to dinner with amy and joanne, then got boba, then went to joanne's place where we worshipped and watched gilmore girls. i played guitar adn my fingers still hurt! anywyaz 9 am class this morning with joanne, lily, emily, willi, jessica and myself...yup yup ba10! it was pretty good stayed awake so that's good! after that went home here until 12, then lunch with alan, then probably home to do laundry and be there for part of chinese new year dinner, then a meeting. in the midst of all that finish my reading!!

1 timothy 6

-it seems that the general theme of timothy has to do with money, or at least provisions.
-i like verse 7, we have brought nothing into the world, so we can not take anything out of it either. think about it....everything that was given to us is from God, we dont' deserve anything, in fact we're lucky that we have things. we should be content in all things
-something i think i have to remember is not to be selfish in my belongings. everything is a blessing because of God and not my own works. sure i work, but i wouldnt' have my job if it weren't for the gifts God has blessed me with.
-it's a great lesson to learn to just be happy with the things i've got...
-paul talks about the temptatiosn of getting rich....the temptations of harmful desires...jealousy, envy, can lead toward a lot of problems, and it can effect someones emotions which can get pretty intense.
-"for the love of money is a root of all sorts of evil, and some by longing for it have wandered away from the faith...." i've had my share of these things...people choosing the high corporate job over their faith...so sad
-pursue righteousness, godlinesss, faith, love, perseverance and gentlenss....even if you don't have the millions of dollars, God will bless you in other ways.
-fix your hope on God!